Remembering a Hero

I remember the days I’ve adored you above all else.

Holding our horns above,
Screaming at the top of our lungs,
Making jokes we’d understand;
That kind of puppy love.

Those days are days I’ve treasured,
No matter how far they seem;
Although I’ve never met her,
Those days are only a dream.

It’s been two years since you’ve last met me;
I wonder if you still remember?

I whistled a tune
The both of us shared those days;
He who made me swoon
The hero who showered praise.

Callous Calem

“Won’t you stay awhile?”
She said to me doubtfully;
It were her first words
She ever told me.

I turned to her gaze,
And was greeted with a smile.
“It’s a little cold,”
She said, “Want to talk?”

I had time to spare,
And so I replied, “alright.”
I trudged over snow
And stood by her side.

“I’ve seen you working,”
She started, “You work real hard.”
“Thanks, but,” I replied,
“I can’t say the same.”

“You’re much too modest!”
She said as she slapped my back.
“I see you take pride
in working so hard!”

“Excuse me,” I said,
“I wasn’t talking about
My work ethic, miss,
it was about yours.”

Her face was puzzled.
It seems she can’t comprehend
I thought she was bad.
I turned to face her.
“Your work ethic sucks.”

FLY

There were days I’ve tried
To jump up into the air
And fly ‘cross the sky.

Of course, it failed me.
Since logic and sciences
Exist in this world,
A person like me can’t fly.

But I’ve found a way.
A way without a machine
To fly in the air.

I’d find a wide cliff
And jump off from its edges.
In that short instant,
I’d find that one small feeling
I’ve longed to achieve.

In those short seconds,
I would finally feel free.

Assassin

You’re terribly mean.
You’ve secretly stabbed my heart
With such pointed knives
Ripping up this heart apart.

You softly whispered
Sweet, kind words into my ear
With our eyes both shut,
I still felt your presence near.

Idioticly
I felt safe in your embrace
But kept ignorant
That I was there to replace

The feelings you felt
Towards a person like me
Were nothing to match
Towards the feelings for she.

Slowly, I’m hurting
The pain took form of bullets
Continuously
Shooting me without limits

Those empty questions
I’ve left for you to answer
Were never answered
So I was left more denser
Than I’ve ever felt
Before.

Dark Shades of Night

She was a girl who’d wait for him,
But there was only one he wanted;
The darkened abyss she’d stay in
Amidst the dark clouds he daunted.
She alone would cry a deep song,
One she’d wail from her heart
But he would turn away from her,
Wishing one day they’d part.

She didn’t understand
How that other one was better,
But understood when she saw;
The glistening eyes, the shy smile he gave
The love and adoration she foresaw.
She’d hide all her thoughts,
Till the end was near
Then threw out all of her
Unwanted fear.

She took all her courage,
She took all her pride,
She made all her strength
Her only knight.

She spoke of her feelings
Of being tossed aside,
She told of her thoughts
Of unwanted confide,
She wasn’t good enough, she wasn’t great
She didn’t feel that he was her fate.

Instead of hearing words of
A large bleeding heart,
The words he spoke were
Hate and bogart;
Her thoughts were true,
As she’d construe,
His darkened eyes
That held some like,
Had become dark shades of night.

8th Bell

“Ring, Ring,” The bell has chimed,
Every year it chimed
But eight times;
The sky turns dark,
The winds blow by,
Your darkened eyes
Have said “goodbye”–
The tears she cried,
The monster bellows
He is no more,
Goodbye

The Escape to Sea

She said, “goodbye.”
“Kyle,”
She said, “farewell,”
As she threw the rock
That flew from the hands
Of the person with
The short water bottle.

Throwing a rock out
Into the open ocean floor
I am the rock
That flew from the hands
Of the person with
The short water bottle.

How I wished I stood
In those clutched fingers
Forever

She held it tight,
That monster of hers,
The one she caressed
So lovingly.
It wasn’t real,
Not even distinct,
That loud, little monster
Of hers.

I watched her,
Holding that creature
Tightly in her arms.
Her crying expression,
The loneliness that spewed
From the depths
Of her eyes

That pooled with
The glistening sparkle
Of loneliness

I reached my hand out
And touched her back;
She looked at me
With those
Lonely eyes

I wanted to make
That sparkle
Mean something different
I wanted to be
Something different;
Something different
Just for her

The days flew by
Her lonely eyes
Continued to sparkle
Why, I asked,
Why would they
Sparkle like that?

The restriction,
Her wants
Her needs
Her everything
I wanted to be

Those glistening eyes
Sparked one day
Into a red rage
Then
Flushed into blue
When she met mine.

Her eyes,
Those glistening eyes
Came back to me
Only me

I feared,
Those eyes would
Only drain tears
If it was only me
Who’d seen these eyes

I turned away
The want to be
Her wants
Her needs
Her everything

She spoke,
I listened
But I had
To look away
From those eyes
Those lonely eyes

One night,
I couldn’t stop
The pain that ate
The bottom
Of my heart
Like a hungry
Beast

I couldn’t
Continue
The continuous play
Of pretend

I looked at her
Up at those eyes
Her eyes glistened
With a clear
Colored yellow

She smiled,
She laughed,
She gave me
Everything
But the role
Of being the one
To give

She walked off
Into the distance
With an unfamiliar face
And name
She never spoke of

Did she
Say that name before?

I sat on the shore
My heart becoming
An empty shell

She picked me up
And said, “goodbye.”
“Kyle,”
She said, “farewell,”
As she threw the rock
That flew from the hands
Of the person with
The short water bottle.

Throwing a rock out
Into the open ocean floor
I am the rock
That flew from the hands
Of the person with
The short water bottle.

Introvert

Sadly, I’m only
But an introverted freak;
I’d rather my games,
My fantasies, my stories.
I’d rather my friend
This tattered soft plush bunny,
For she’d never leave.

But you,you’re a prince–
One I’d never imagine
Who’d step into this world of mine.

Oh, but it’s alright
If you’d decided to leave.
It would be more like
Avoiding someone like me.
Oh please, just go on;
Take your suitcase,and that car
Take it all away–

I know that there’s none
To pull me from the darkness;
I’m sinking lower;
Sinking into the dark depths
Of that vast, black sea.

I would run away from you,
Hiding myself in the past
To let myself see
That one day it will soon pass;
That hateful feeling
Of becoming thrown aside.

Sadly, I’m only
But an introverted freak;
I’d rather these things
That would have never left me
The way you’ve left me.

A Walk Through The Years

I used to walk through the halls
Staring at my feet.
Left, Right, Left, Right, Left, Right, Left.
The repetition
Made me feel safe from my fears.

After one year passed,
My eyes began to look up.
I looked straight ahead,
Confident of direction,
Unmistakened
In the turns I’d make.

Another year passed.
My eyes wandered everywhere,
Curious of them;
The people I’d pass everyday.
My head would turn from
Side to side, Watching like a child.

One last year has passed;
My eyes only looked foreward.
It’s a lie, these eyes,
They’ve seen everything.
Nothing to look for, Nothing to see;

The last time I’d try
To look for someone
Like he.

Jealousy

I hate this feeling.
I don’t want to feel this way
towards anything.